TOMMY CICERO
Running with them Fun Guys
Super-chill-laid-back beat licensed with marvin, Toronto
This beat helped me realize, however life is unfolding for me right now, it's for my greatest good and sincerest intentions. It may not always feel that way, since change for the better can get rough, but it’s usually necessary when it’s paving the way for us to align with our heart’s desire. For this awareness, I am truly grateful. This is a story about disrupting life on purpose, to help stimulate positive change and growth . . .
It was the dawning of a perfect storm, shaking up the snow globe of my life. Oh yeah, been through this drill before. At least twice, where it feels like, God punching me in the face and gut like, “You need to wake the funk up kid!” Stuck on autopilot. Coasting nowhere fast. I knew it couldn’t and wouldn’t last. Got too comfortable while sleeping on my gifts, knowing I should be putting more effort into creating a life I’d truly like to live. Got so much more Love to spread and give.
Maybe I’m on the roster, but in this Game of Life, I was just taking up a spot at the end of the bench. Wasn’t looking for playing time. I was just wasting time. That’s when my friend introduced me to these Fun Guys I never met before. 🍄 I had hung with some of their friends before, but these were different spores. She helped these guys grow on her own, so I trusted I was in good hands.
And eventually I was, but getting there was littered with roadblocks and setbacks, until I was finally able to let go of what was preventing me from becoming the ideal version of Tommy C. Finally free. The real OG me.
Unfortunately, it didn’t come that easy and became real extreme at first. These Fun Guys got me realizing my worth and how bad I was hurting by limiting the potential inside me. I felt Tommy was hiding, behind Tom, a role I played for a quarter century, while morphing into some obedient cog in the wheel of society. Until eventually, I decided to ditch those corporate handcuffs I wore. My life requires my freedom to explore and do so much more.
I also realized I have the knowledge and skills to earn an honest living and live freely, with more intent. More evident when heaven sent. With the right attitude, and by making smart moves, I can do more of what I choose.
Although, I chose poorly when my confidence got the best of me. My ego flexed and tested this newfound courage I felt while running with them Fun Guys. It backfired. No surprise. Though they were on the micro-side, one too many stacks from Stamets almost took me to another planet. That’s when I stopped enjoying the ride. That’s when I had to say I’m done guys, but y’all helped me out, and for a while, it was a good run guys.
It didn’t end there, since my family was worried for me. I was bouncing between manic and panic. Wasn’t thinking so clear, and was ignoring the static. I became erratic. It was the right move, for my brother to make sure I was ok with all those spiked moods.
I got impatient, so inpatient is where I ended up. An isolating and unknown environment can be a big scare, but I didn’t care. I needed time to think. Time to process my life and all the change. Perspective and patience became my saviors, right behind my Faith. And I felt so grateful when I left after seven days.
That next Monday, after 47 trips around the Sun, I retired Tom. He’s gone. In this Game of Life, I no longer want him playing along. He served a purpose for a while, but now it’s time for moving on. So when you see me on the street, it’s only Tommy that you’ll meet.
This shake-up has also got me reaching out to old friends. The ones where you pick up where you left off. No need for amends. Guess it depends. For me, it’s all good. When I reach out, I’m usually looking to break bread. Maybe rekindle that connection we had from the start. We’re all just humans here doing our part, and when connecting with each other, we create unshakeable Faith and Love in our hearts.
All those Fun Guys helped remind me that my part requires me to march to the beat of my own drum, so I can be my true self without playing by silly rules. More authentic, unconventional, and eccentric.
Most importantly, I’m more invested in helping everyone level up their life, which aligns me with my heart’s desire. Grateful to those Fun Guys and Cynthia for the fuel that sparked a fire inside. Helping me to keep leveling up my life while I keep enjoying the ride.
This was an account of my experience microdosing psilocybin for three weeks in November 2024 utilizing the Stamets Stack. I advise anyone interested in utilizing psychedilics for healing purposes to do your research and always take the safe route with a professional or trusted guide. There is a big and bright future for psychedelics in helping people heal from past trauma, depression, anxiety, etc. We are at the dawn of this cost-effective and efficient approach to helping more people break out of their mental prisons so they can live better lives. This is exciting stuff!